Shades of Grey posted a comment on my last entry regarding a post on his blog quite a while back. Whilst reading the comment, I literally just found out that I guy I had the biggest crush on, and by biggest, I meant designing monograms, using his last name, nicknaming him, etc. just got engaged.
Until today I didn't know what people meant-as commented by Shades of Grey.
Maybe I'm picky, but I didn't really have any feelings for guys I dated. Perhaps it was cuz I only dated them once or a few times max, or maybe because half were losers or jerks (no offence-I'm an honest, straight out person). But, after hearing that the guy I harbored world's greatest crush on was......taken...I freaked out. I was really sad. Partly because I was sooo hopeful about us getting together. It made sooo much sense in my mind. We were, or atleast I believed, SUCH A GOOD COUPLE. He was exactly the kinda guy I was looking for.
Yes, whilst I know, not everyone is perfect, etc. even HE had some things I didn't quite approve of, but was ok with, knowing almost everything about him. Usually, when being redd shidduchim I woulda heard those things and nixed the whole idea, but because I actually knew (about) this guy, I was able to see past it.
So, Shades-of-Grey, I totally get you. It's just really weird that this whole post/comment/post came along the first time I am a bit heartbroken. I don't know what to say. I usually thought the whole crush thing with people was either fake (people wanted to BELIEVE they loved someone) or based on TV/movies e.g. Twilight tweens obsessed with that werewolf guy.
So, now I know it's true.....love is possible....or atleast what I believe until now....